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Why do people always insist on bringing up the things that bother you most? Those things that you would rather forget, those things that you're most ashamed of, those things that are better not discussed. Those things that hurt you? Do they gain some sick pleasure, some feeling of superiority that makes them feel as if they're better than you?

Why is it that the things you don't want to talk about, they want to press the issue? Can't they tell by the short answers, the hesitations in the replies and the changing of the subject that you don't want to talk about it? Or is it fun to see your so-called 'friend' fidget trying to reply about things that they don't talk about. The funniest part is when they ask:

Are you crying?

No, I'm not crying. Do you want me to? Would that make you feel better? Would it make you stop asking me these questions? Do you like it when people cry? Does it make you feel strong? And then they can give their mock sympathy, right? And walk away feeling as if they've done all they can for their poor unfortunate friend. You know, that one that is always unhappy for one reason or another.

"Inquiring minds want to know," they claim. Yeah, you want to know all those deep down dirty secrets... So that you can pretend to feel sorry for me and feel like you're doing good. And it's never the good things I've done, either. It's the times that i hesitate to answer that the "Inquiring minds want to know."

Why is it that I'm not afraid to bare my soul to a stranger? Why is it that it's so much easier for me to spew all my feelings to somebody I don't know. Why is it so much scarier speaking to somebody I've known for years? -- because those are the people who'll give me the most probing questions. The people whose appetites aren't satisfied by the surface level happenings of my life. They want to know the details.

Why must I sit here and relive the things that I would rather forget? It's not that interesting to you -- don't pretend it is. It's not like you can help me anyway -- why do you have to know about it?

Do I seem overly bitter? Why don't you try thinking of the things that you've done that you would most like to forget. And then have someone who's supposedly supposed to be your friend ask you months later "why did you do that?" "why did this happen?" "What do these results mean?" "So you did this for what?"

Yeah, if that doesn't hurt then I applaud you because it sure as hell fucking hurts me having people make me relive shit that I've been trying to forget.

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Posted by Kim @ 01:27 PM PST

2 have spoken

Yeah, I'm not talking about the sweet people that care. I'm talking about those people you've known for years but like... dont' really talk to and then they IM you and start asking you all these personal questions like you're still close or something... :<

Posted by Kim @ 09/03/2001 03:45 PM PST

It definitely helps to get over things by talking to people that honestly want to hear, but sometimes, it's true ... talking to some people about certain things is a big waste of time because they don't get it and judge you for things they don't understand. To those, I just say straight-up "I don't want to talk to you about this." It works. They stop bugging you.

Posted by Michelle [virtual dwelling] @ 09/03/2001 03:11 PM PST