I feel sucked into my computer... An overwhelming drawing towards the internet... Into this world where I'm a different 'me'. Whether it's the "real" me or if it's just the personality I want to project -- I can't tell. Perhaps it's a little bit of both and neither. It's become a part of who I am.
It's almost scary, really... But I feel helpless against the pull. It's as if this world is becoming more real to me than the 'real' world sometimes. At least the drama is. Maybe I'm just becoming desensitized by the 'net. It's the only thing that continues to shock me.
Real life isn't as shocking as the things that people make up in their heads.
Isn't it a scary feeling? I don't know what it is, but you end up staying online and you don't really know what's keeping you on. I mean, it's saying something if I'm choosing to stare at a computer monitor over doing other things. My little cousin spends 4-5 hours a day online just chatting. What was I doing in high school? My brother hogged the computer constantly, so I guess I focused on other things. Aaaargh. The internet ... it is simultaneously a blessing and a curse.
