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i find myself most attracted to people who aren't completely nice to me. i don't know what it is about people who have a bit of meanness in them. perhaps it's because the more i dislike someone, the more i tend to be sugary sweet to them -- maybe i just see it as a reflection of myself. "hey look, they're mean to me, that must mean that they like me!"... that's pretty twisted thinking there, if I do say so myself.

truthfully, if someone is really nice, i always wonder why they're being nice. people in general aren't nice -- there's always a reason for it. well, there are reasons for people to be mean, too, but those are generally easy to figure out.

people who are nice are always looking for something. satisfaction, perhaps? the happy feeling in their tummy that they're a good person? the satisfaction of knowing that other people think they're good people? that might be it. maybe it all really is for the perception of others.

but what about those people who always seem nice to everybody? i can't really say that it's "just how they are", what makes them the way they are? what makes people sweet and never mean?

let my friends be slightly mean and simpleminded as opposed to constantly nice and hiding something. it makes life easier and less confusing for me.

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Posted by Kim @ 05:37 PM PST

2 have spoken

i'm not saying asshole type guy though... just people who aren't always completely nice. like you, dave, if you were always sweet to me, i would always be like "omg, when is he going to crack??!" hehe, but since you're mean sometimes, i know that you're not completely fake. well, you COULD be and are being mean cuz it's part of your fakeness... but you know... being slightly mean gives me the illusion that someone is being more 'real'.

kim.

Posted by kim @ 11/06/2001 08:01 PM PST

you just explained why girls go for assholes

Posted by dave @ 11/06/2001 06:51 PM PST