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sometimes i feel as if life is just a giant tornado carrying me along. i don't knowwhat's going to happen to me, what i have and what i don't have, what's been destroyed, what's been preserved, whether or not some people i care about are okay, and yet i just keep getting blown, drifting along until i find the eye of the storm -- only to build new glass houses, meet new people, create new relationships, start over, work hard in school, only to have it all blown away and destroyed again in one fell swoop.

why do i drift from people so easily? i really really want to uphold my relationships, but then something inside of me makes me stop talking to people. stop making an effort to see the people that i love. and then i feel that i'm too distant from them to talk to them. and then i feel i'm too distant from them to visit. and then the friendship as i once knew it ends.

" i learned that friendships are made and maintained, and nobody is going to do it for me. "

said david, when writing about what he learned in college on 30.4.2001. how inspiring. working to maintain a friendship? so different than in H.S. when people that you are friends with are basically people that you see every day.

weird. i get the sudden urge to talk to my buddies from SanJose. =T

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Posted by Kim @ 10:10 AM PST

2 have spoken

Most friends come and go, through school, college, work, etc. I find that its the true friends that are the ones who will always be there right till the end. Things may seem to 'die' off because of distance and going in different directions, of course. But people who you can catch up with, even after years, and share the best of times with are the only ones who hold that true value of friendship. You will always meet new friends and acquaintances to enjoy your time with wherever you go :) I pretty much isolated myself from the world this year all in the name of completing my Comp Sci degree, and lost touch with a LOT of people. A huge chunk is missing that I am now trying to fill. But I know I will meet new people, and I've hooked up with some of my oldest friends who I am still close as ever with. And I guess that's what really matters...

Posted by Mike [e-meo] [virtual dwelling] @ 11/13/2001 12:48 PM PST

friendships... oh man, been there... I STILL have friends who whine about the "good ol' days" in high school when there was this "community." Yeah, a community that hated us, but was obligated to be friendly to us. I remember popular girls coming to me, when they realized I was smarter than them and not a stoner, "Wow, you're cool, we should hang out." Shut up, I ain't doing your homework!

But sometimes I did. I was a sucker. WAS a sucker.

I have no point.

Posted by Jesse [e-meo] [virtual dwelling] @ 11/13/2001 11:06 AM PST