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some seem to drift through life with the mentality of "go with the flow", and somehow they always make it. it seems to me that sometimes the more you try, the more you struggle against what life is giving you, the harder the current becomes, until you find yourself in a whirlpool that you can't seem to pull yourself out of.

sometimes i feel that go with the flow mentality. it's so nice, it's so relaxing -- but it opens the heart and soul for more disillusionment and jadedness when it ends. when the mentality falls away like a dead skin, a newer, seemingly thicker more calloused skin appears : a more cynical me.

i don't think i like it... because though i'm armed with this new, stronger, more durable skin, i feel as if i'm falling in and endlessly dark pit that has no bottom. when the go with the flow mentality disappeared, so did my sense of stability.

what am i doing? who am i really?

i should stop thinking. i need to stop thinking. i'm too busy for self introspection. at least that's what i'd like to tell myself... but that seems to be what's most on my mind as of late.

i wonder if this is called changing.

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Posted by Kim @ 09:56 PM PST

3 have spoken

I don't know why, but i have an urge to make that stand out:

"DEAD FISH go with the flow."

that's DEAD FISH.

..maybe that urge comes from trying to pummel and engrave that thought into my own head so that i start fighting against the current with all my might.

Posted by Steph @ 11/15/2001 01:56 PM PST

That's how I feel too.

=( = =\

one thing that ALWAYS comes into my mind about that "go with the flow" mentality though, ever since one of my friends had told it to me, is that:

"Dead fish go with the flow."

*siiigh*
i feel stressed! constantly saying i need to do this, but don't even end up doing it. I keep wanting to change my habits, do the shit that i say i'm going to do, but it doesn't seem to be working. ARGH.

i understand those feelings that that Jason was talking about too.

AHHH. ^SCREAM^

...back to work.

love,
Steph

Posted by Steph [e-meo] @ 11/15/2001 01:50 PM PST

NEVER stop THINKING!!! NEVER!!!

Posted by Jesse [virtual dwelling] @ 11/15/2001 11:18 AM PST