dude, who the fuck cares if the whole world knows. you don't need to explain shit, and if you got 12 comments every post by everyone putting in their 2 cents, before this one of course (because you just told them they couldn't possibly understand fully), thinking that they know you as well as someone like john .p. or anyone else you know... how much do you really need to explain yourself?

there are so many vaguely sexist, but praising comments here that are as worthless as 90% of the praises on my guestbook just because someone wants to leave their email addresses and websites on the front page in the hopes that somehow maybe you'll look at them and smile. ever since i was on the internet i come to realize the net is like a big high school now-- completely based on how beautiful you look online and intellectual sounding online. write for yourself, girl, i mean with good writing like you have done before and will do again you can improve the veracity and honesty of your comments from people that will take you seriously as a writer, not a girl writer.

Posted by dave @ 05/12/2002 02:16 PM PST

i totally agree with saint. i am lost most of the time that i come to this site. but when i really sit down and read what you are saying, it makes me think on what i can do to make myself a better person. i feel for you and what you are going through, but always remember: things will eventually get better. life is not just black and white. it is a myriad of colors and feelings that is to be explored to the fullest. if all of us had an existence that was plain and simple, humanity would have died out long ago. then what would be the reason to go on living if nothing changed. we would all stagnate and die off.
i hope that this might have helped you a little (maybe not).
also i like the new format. ciao~